What do I do, can
life go on? Don’t you care, my Lord
how hard it is down
here on earth, the emptiness, this void?
Why did You have to
take Lee now with so much left undone?
Couldn’t we have
had three decades more of life and
Why didn’t You
steer that car away or juggle time a
Why did he have to
die this way with so much grief and sad?
Every time I drive
that road must tear-storms rage again?
Can longest time
e’er heal my heart, or memories, so
Why do we have to
suffer so while in this earthly pit?
Wasn’t he full of
Holy Glow before when he was hit?
Should I take this
photo down, that memory so demure?
Why does the time
just go so slow while pain is so secure?
How can I sleep in
that same bed where we so often waked
with hugs and love
and peace secure, with days and nights
The children grown,
our life, half lived, we looked toward
times to come
When we’d have time
to do Your work and travel for Your
Then as I thought
of gentle hugs, Lee’s whispers in my
This simple verse,
His Spirit’s tug, became His thoughts so
in My sight is the death of saints
their Cross across this earth with
I’ve planned all
roads to lead them here, Lee’s death was
I know it’s
hard, but understand, it is My choice to
Then as I thought
of all I’ve read about His cherished
With streets of
gold and light so pure, no tears will
As I listened hard
again it seems I heard Him say:
here, Lee had no choice, he really wants
here, beyond belief, mere words cannot
The holy songs I
always hear, the anthems of My Bride!
The beauty of My
purest love, the joy of heartache’s cure
You’ll meet your
friends, your parents too, in harmony so
awhile, the tears will fall, as evidence
Of how you’ve
loved and lived it all, the trying time
climbed your final hill and dropped your
on top of your
own Calvary and shed your earthly dross,
I’ll greet you
at the pearly gates, with Peter, Lee,
and Paul –
We’ll sing and
dance, we’ll celebrate, your life, your
path, your all.
I know you
cannot see right now, you cannot
The reasons why
I brought Lee home, his earthly life to
But rest assured
you’ll know that day, when you get up
all your holy love, Lee’s death you
won’t so rue.”